I did not want to leave the store...its hard when your caught off guard

Che, I have a similar experience from time to time. If I hear Michael's music, I pretend to browse depending what store or boutique I'm in at the time when I'm really in it for the music. I also conjure up mixed emotions - happy to hear his music but said in the knowledge and reality that he's no longer around. Naturally, if it's one of his uptempo songs, I would naturally break into a little intimate dance with just minimal range in my body. It's so infectious! I'd go as far as thrusting my hips, jerking my body side to side and probably making a few facial expressions too to match the intensity of the music.

ahhh that's beautiful and sad Chel .
We all want to cry wen we hear his music.

Well today i when to touch up my mj tattoo..and add more color...
after that i decided to walk into pretty girl store..and the first pretty girl store i didnt like the colors very much so i went to another.
As i walked in..my heart skiped a beat..i noticed the tune playing..it was "Hold my hand"..it caught me off guard so i smiled..and a bittersweet feeling swept over me.
Then they played saun paul so i thought they were done playing michael..Saun pauls song had the same concept as hold my hand except he was saying "girl hold my hand"..and that she will never be alone..i thought it was a nice song...then as i shoped some more..i hear more mj tunes..
Now i am on line and human nature is playing..so i smile..tears form in my eyes
as i come to realize..almost everyone in the store was either humming singing or both to michaels tunes....
i try to hide the tears away and hmm too...
Then 'they dont care about us" starts to play..im thinking to myself..they are playing michael all day!!!
followed by some childhood tunes...*tears* its even harder to listen to little mikey...
Then they play "Why"...and i start to crying thinking to myself
WHY MICHAEL..WHY DID YOU HAVE TO GO..WHY DID GOD HAVE TO TAKE YOU SO SOON...WHY DO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..WHY WHY WHY...
That song pierced the shafts of my brain..i was certain someone would see me crying..self conscious that someone would start staring...
They play "You rock my world" next..and the girls are singing int the store...
They skip the mixture of billie jean and eminem ...lol
There playing all his tunes..and i dont want to leave, almost crying cause i have to!
As i go to the register they begin to play "we are the world"..omg my heart is breaking...everyone is singing...michaels soothing voice pierces my heart...
i cry..and put down a pear of jeans that ive come to realize i may not need...the songs concept of giving gets to me..
I tell the clerk.."You guys are going to take all my money, your playing michael..i dont want to leave"..he starts smiling..
as i pay for everything..he wishes me a nice day..and i wish him the same...
Michael i miss you so much...
its hard when your caught off guard...